Ok people this is my first long blog. Now I'm going to warn you. The subject matter is sad so yeah! And harsh language.
I would love to say a thank you to my cat Obi. He died this Monday (22/06/2026), to be honest I am still in shock. He was a little horrible shit (/s) at time, he was a cold blooded murder but he was my cold blooded murder. The phase you don't know what you lost until it gone fit pretty great right now.
I want my cat back I will do anything to see his cute little face.
For you all wondering he was put down due to cancer he'd had cancer in his eye earlier this year and the vet said there was nothing he could do! I loved him, he was so cute.
So that just thrown me off guard completely. Lucky it my summer, I feel awful for my bother he had to go into school and do a French speaking exam. I remember that being scary enough even without the chance my cat being put down. He was the very best owner to that cat. Even if it just for him just bring him back, I beg! I truly beg! I want my cat back god damm it! Please.
So today just been Shit. I had to do a trial day for my second college of choice (that y12-13 at age 16-18 so Americans that your junior & senior year), so yeah not even my main choice. It was so awful. I felt like such a loner. No one from my school was there. Getting their sucked, woke up and got the bus at 5:30 AM (I am so sorry Americans who I been told you have to do that every day, rough) and then got lost in this town. If you don't know I use a Razr v3* from 2004 so no maps. I forgot to print of directions cause 5:30AM. So I got lost, ate 0 breakfast and than was still 25 mins late! I just sort of "cried" to one of the support staff. I know wonderful first impression, it sure to leave an impact. The rest of day was a blur it was no walk in the "parklife", the "boys and girls" there just stressed me out. I will "sing" it praises as a school staff fab and lessons seem fun and interesting. For a "second" choice college it still be a great pick (for context I live next to one of the top 10 best collages in the country I'm not kidding so kind of got to be that one). Now i would love to tell you but yeah doxing my self at 16 isn't a fab choice in life. Everyone told me college would be great, I'm still not sure, were you?
I can not say her name but M thank you for cheacking up on me, I appricate it. You gonna shine a prom(i'm not going cause it all about capitlaism and i hate highschool). Have fun eith your Boy freind! Do I regret not going prom? Sort of saying my freind who also didn't go is bailing on me (Dude i know you might read this I mean no offence, "I don't look back in anger"). Will i drink myslef to death tommorrow? No! What movie should i watch? Titanic I think. I need to stocker the flames of i will never find love. No seriously, I really want a Boyfreind, if you that unlucky guy "hi". (I am 16 btw so don't hit on me!!!!). I could watch trainspotting, now that will kill my mood (review on it soon by the way, my faviroute movie), Romeo + Juliet, love it again mabye a Leo binge!
So yeah that been a teenager rant about how there life sucks! More to come. Way more CSS and design! Oh great thing i found was this guy HERE. His video are so emo i love them!